sjgcbm's Cancer Blog
October 22, 2008
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Just as I was starting to “feel better” (not sleeping all the time, not in pain all the time) my Mom was hospitalized. I spent a week visiting each day – which included a 45 minute drive each way – thank goodness for a friend who drove – as I am not driving yet. I decided not to ask my oncologist for permission to walk into an ICU - I was too afraid he would say “no”.
So with mask and gown and gloves, I would sit and talk with my Mom who was unconscious most of the time.
Her ICU doctors and nurses were all very concerned about taking care of me too! I guess my chemo caps gave me away – and one day they called and told me to stay home; they could see how exhausted I was.
Mom was referred to hospice and discharged from the hospital bak to her room at the nursing home that had been her “home” for few years. She died peacefully the next day, my older brother and her best friend and I were in her room talking to her.
The funeral was on Monday, and I admit I am exhausted by the last two weeks. I have never been so glad not to be back at work.
My friends are all walking around saying things like “how much more can happene to you this year?” And all I can see is my blessings – the friends that helped me get through chemo, the friends who came to the funeral, the folks who have supported me here online.
No need to reply, just accept my thanks for helping me get through the past few months and the months to come.
How much more can I take?, 
5 comments)
06.27.08 - 
Sari 
pokytrokyt 
Lee Lehman 
Thanks for your support -
What an intense couple weeks. I am so sorry for you loss. You a strong wonderful women and I am glad to know you. Sending you lots of love.
I’m so sorry to hear about your mom. I lost my mom two years ago, and it is one of the hardest things to go through. I can’t imagine going through that loss while trying to fight cancer as well. God be with you during this time. I will be praying for peace and comfort for you.
Take care,
Jalene
My dear sister, I am sorry that your Mom has passed. She is in good hands.
Love Sherri
I am so sorry to hear about your Mother it is never easy loosing a parent no matter what age you are. My thought and prayers are with you.
Cheryl
Dear Sarajane; I just am responding to my emails from almost a month ago to find yours, hearing that your mom passed away. How much can happen in a year, I don’t know? I am so sorry for you and do hope that you find peace in knowing she was in good care, and that you were able to be by her side when she met her maker. Not all of us get that blessing so god is being good to you and yes, you seem to have put all of this in perspective about friends, helping friends. It is good to be positive, it guides us through the valleys. Hopefully you can now spend all your energy in living well.
Weezie